my experiences have shown me this- they have shown me I swing the pendulum from one extreme to the other. this is the human experience. this is life.
i fought my choice to not drink for years and then some. for whatever reason, i couldn’t give in to the idea that drinking was no longer going to be a part of my life…
Turns out by definition ‘desire’ does lend itself to goals, but I still interpret desire to be more intimate and personal. What you desire are the goals that are for you aside from your children or husband, work or school. These are the needs and wants for you to feel whole or safe or sexy or satisfied. (not necessarily sexually, but a hell yes if that is your desire!)
No one wants to think they have a two faced friend, so when you become aware that it is you who is two faced, you might find yourself freaking out a bit. I’m not talking about your typical two faced scenario with friends and betrayal either.
i don’t struggle with not drinking.
i struggle in general.
it’s national recovery month and while so many out there are posting dates and celebrating personal years of sobriety, i’m looking back and questioning years of sobriety.
Choosing not to drink is a very difficult choice, not only if you like to drink and enjoy to party, but you take into consideration you’ve spent more of your years on this earth doing it than years not.