my experiences have shown me this- they have shown me I swing the pendulum from one extreme to the other. this is the human experience. this is life.
For all my people struggling, I see you. Find the meaning, not the shortcut out.
i was recently reading about a celebrity divorce and the wife was quoted saying that she was focused on staying strong for her kids and was doing ‘a lot of crying in the shower’. you know what i save for the shower? my vibrator. that’s what i don’t want my kids to hear.
Turns out by definition ‘desire’ does lend itself to goals, but I still interpret desire to be more intimate and personal. What you desire are the goals that are for you aside from your children or husband, work or school. These are the needs and wants for you to feel whole or safe or sexy or satisfied. (not necessarily sexually, but a hell yes if that is your desire!)
I’m talking about a person who swore she never wanted kids only to find out it was because I knew deep down loving you this much and not being able to protect you forever and control your every outcome would be one of life’s longest, hardest lessons to practice.
No one wants to think they have a two faced friend, so when you become aware that it is you who is two faced, you might find yourself freaking out a bit. I’m not talking about your typical two faced scenario with friends and betrayal either.
Let’s start with the one about me personally.
The one that went straight for my jugular.
“i’ve heard from a few sources about that shoe and it’s not a good fit.”
The underlying current is hurry up and finish; be it at work, finishing a run, or hell, trying to have an orgasm. I’m trying to force the best results in the least amount of time and shushing the voice of reason saying…